I have started many things as a beginner but feeling like I needed to be in the pre-beginner class instead.  I didn’t like that.

I’ve done it with yoga classes and tai chi classses, in fact any exercise routine class I’ve taken.  I’ve done it with any new learning of anything I’ve started where I feel like I’m being stretched. My excitement turns to resistance.

Starting at the beginning of something for me is not fun. The learning curve is so steep that I don’t venture past those fledgling attempts at trying to understand things and gain a new brain muscle memory. I start excitedly but the momentum soon gets stalled as something new comes up and I have to adjust to try and grasp a new concept.

Of course I think I’m wrong for functioning this way!

A few days ago I made a choice to put together a website. I’ve started ones before and not carried it through to the end. I always felt like I never got passed the pre-beginner stage! It takes quite a bit of energy for me to do the back end technical things I have to do in order to be successful.

What if I do it wrong? What if it looks like an amateur made it? What if the links don’t work? What if…. what if….

I persevered this time and I think I qualified to get my badge to BEGINNER!